but most probably is jealousy...i too jealous when i got to know he actually went out with female colleagues or fetch female colleagues to the office..in fact i know it is nothing and normal but because i am too possesive and easily get jealous and i started everything...i started to end his call n didnt reply his messages...but sumetimes i will think, why should i do that...but very very fortunately he is always so patient and waited for me to cool down first and explain to me the whole things....as he always said..our problem is distance n the fact is i cant survive without guy...but i can promise that i wont do anything wrong as i know i am a Puan...not a CIk anymore..in fact sometimes feel very sad for that title..or mayb still not get used of this title....
another matter "fairness'' alwaz swirl in my mind...is there any fair or unfair in a relationship...in fact we know in a relationship there is not fair and unfair..but why i seem so calculative counting whether is this fair for me, or is this fair 4 him...or mayb i am too worried for so many things which i should not do that...n again my hubby told me..this is due to distance problem..is IT?? i am still wondering..
i am a very weird person, at this moment i am perfectly love him, at the next second i will suddenly angry with him with a small matter...is me got problem or he got problem..or distance is the problem...we kept on blaming on 'distance'' but it is distance is a real problem..if we didnt register that day, will we still a couple now???a very big question mark...my best friend said..'if he is your real man, you will be with him no matter what n when'..but now we seem force ourselves using the title of 'husband and wife'...well, it is truly sweet n blissful when u have a husband or someone who confirm will be there always with you...but how if there is husband but not always be with you, is it a lacking there???however, soon we will see each other and hopefully all will settle....it is kind of stupid..in fact is already husband and wife but still ha
ve so many worries..mayb i stay in kampung, not much entertainment and too free to think nonsense..or mayb my jealousy is too strong...i hope that my hubby alwayz support me and bear with me..but i know he for sure will always standby me!!!he will try all his best to comfort me and calm me down!!!darling, i know sometimes i bit like nonsense..i also dont know why at that moment i will feel like that...bu
t very fortunate GOD understand me and alwayz give me the best thing and that is you...i know you alwayz try very hard to cope with me...and i alwayz be the one to find fault...i am trying hard to change but you know bit hard for me because i am who i am..but we both have confidence we will stay happily and blissfully until the end of our life!!! hope i can get transfer fast back to his side and bulit our happy family!!!!and make one thing clear, i ahve the heart to get transfered but i don wan to put so much hope so that i wont get hurt if the transferation is failed..hope u too...just try our best to maintain our marriage!!! LOve u!!
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