Very soon, I am teaching in Sabah for half of year. Before this, I never think of that I can adapt this kampong like without my hubby. But I still miss him. I started to learn how to enjoy the life here and maintain our relationship through phone, msn, 3G and webcam. When we can see each other on screen, undeniable the feeling of missing each other getting stronger, however, we feel that we both are close to each other. It is more than enough. Chinese new Year just passed and another new year, new hope is coming. This year I still get to take angpow and I thought next year I still have chance to take one more time.
But there is one weekend I got shock and so hard to settle down when I got to know that my mother in law wish us to get married end of this year. One thing I worry most is about money. I always wish I have a memorable wedding. But my best friend had wakened me up. In one couple life, the most memorable thing is that we are being recognized as husband and wife. This is the most blissful n merry moment. Even I had a very grand and memorable wedding, but if m future married life is not blissful is not meaningful also. My best buddies were surprised when got to know I am going to get married. They were so excited and happy for me. Well, at first thought that next year only I are going to have the wedding but since next year is believed to be not so good year and a fierce year. Rather than taking a risk, I am happy and excited to have the wedding day end of this year. Even simple, I think now I don’t mind already. Otherwise, have to wait till 2011. While I believe that if still delay our relationship will halt at one pace and become dull. That time will become very dull in the relationship. When we reach certain stage, we need new thing to spark up the relationship.
Honestly , I always dream how my wedding looks like. What is in my mind is not very grand wedding. But my wedding crowded with many people and relatives. My 6 yrs university buddies who are all happy of my belonging. Their wishes are so meaningful to me. I think I will become very happy and grateful for their coming and having a real good husband. But I still wish llike what is the movie, how d guy propose to the wife in a very romantic environment, in our case, we both just agree and so naturally and unconsciously plan the wedding before he has chance to propose to me. One silly question in my mind, if already ready for the wedding then only propose, will it be as romantic as what is in the movie? If no proposal like lacking something. Well, maybe I am too demanding.
For the time being, we were busy surveying room furniture and some wedding stuffs and do budgeting. One more thing, although we live apart, we both will search the same thing like survey wedding photos that we feel that is beautiful and special. We will discuss the photos as though that I am very pro. Then criticize people photo somemore. Hopefully our room turns out to be what we both like and comfortable. In fact, as long as is our room, a simple room is more than enough already.
Back to reality, all these need money. If keep everything too simple, I scare that I might regret in the future because wedding is once in your whole life. But money is still a big problem. Somemore, now is having economy crisis. I don’t know what will happen in the future. Will the economy recover in this few months? Will my hubby’s career stable and go higher? All question marks swirling in my head. In fact, I shouldn’t think too much. I always believe that GOD has his own planning. Same like I am posted to sabah and I see things differently and learn new things. Everything he arranges will take us to another better stage and path. It is depend on how we take it and accept it. Whatever thing happens, as long as we have hands and brain, nothing will beat us down. And whatever thing happen, I will support him and hopefully by this all turn positively and what I wish will come true. God bless us ok. Wish my hubby has a smooth career and everything turn out as what we wish.
