BlisSfUL LiFe

ChapTer of New Life

2011-07-14T20:25:00.000-07:00

MOm'S Diary
Entry 19
Week 39

all of us have fully prepared...mummy went to visit dr chang to see your current situation..everything just perfectly fine !!! just waiting for the time, waiting for you to come out...

you are now 3.2kg (estimated)

government dr said if you still dont want to come out, mummy need to be warded on 27th july..anyhow mummy still hope that you will come out according to the due date given..otherwise mummy need to be induced..and is very painful!! baby, please cooperate with mummy ok !!!

you must give mummy hint before you want to come out k..so that mummy and daddy have sufficient time to rush to sp hospital...mummy and daddy cant wait to hold you !!!! my little cuttie !!!!

ChapTer of New Life

2011-07-14T20:13:00.000-07:00

MOm'S Diary
Entry 18
week 38+

This weekend mummy, daddy, a ma, siaw gu were busy cleaning the room to prepare your arrival...we have cleaned out so many rubbish..

in the evening, all of us went to electrical shop to survey air-con and slow cooker..a gong straight bought the air-con after surveyd at the second shop...see, so many people sayang you and wait for your arrival...

mummy know soon you will reach the world...all of us welcome you with the warmest heart..you must promise mummy stay healthy and strong inside ok !!!! and cooperate with mummy when mummy is trying hard to push you out !!!

ChapTer of New Life

2011-07-14T20:07:00.000-07:00

MOm'S Diary
Entry 17
Week 37

mummy went to the government clinic to scan on your position..Thanks God, everything is fine...you are at the right position !! good boy !! mummy love you so so much !!!

your weight now is estimated around 3.2kg..just nice !!!!

Mummy suffered from mild diarrhea...maybe due to too much of coconut milk...mummy 'tam chiak' lo...ate too much santan in one day..morning took nasi lemak, kuah durian and went to penang took cendol...hopefully mummy will recover soon !!!!

ChapTer of New Life

2011-07-14T19:48:00.000-07:00

MOm'S Diary
Entry 16
Week 34+

Mummy went to check up at Dr chang..daddy asked Dr to focus on your bird bird and print it out to keep as memory...can see boy boy 's egg egg...

this is the proof !!! muaks...mummy love you !!!

Since it was school holidays, mummy and daddy have washed most of your daily clothes and necessary things and kept inside the drawers..really a lot..little short sleeve baju have around 40 pieces, long sleeves around 20 pieces, napkin around 20 pieces..almost done with that !!!!

ChapTer of New Life

2011-07-14T19:40:00.000-07:00

MOm'S Diary
Entry 15
Week 32+

Shopping List

1. bath tab RM60
2. baby kiko little long sleeve clothes + cap + booties and mittens RM60
(too expensive)
3. short sleeve clothes RM20 +
4. mummy's maternity pads RM25+

and some other little things...all cost around rm200

daddy have bought a 5-tier drawers in Giant to keep all your stuffs !!!

ChapTer of New Life

2011-05-21T23:07:00.000-07:00

MOm'S Diary
Entry 14
week 31 ++

Mummy went to Dr. Chang..mummy's weight didnt increase much...bb's weight now is 1.7kg..everything goes well....mummy dan daddy double confirm with dr chang that you r really bb boy so that we could go shopping little clothes for you...today, mummy and daddy are going to buy you your necessary in Jusco...

Mummy cant walk much...after walk for awhile will feel backpain..mummy can still bear with it...bb, remember stay in mummy's tummy for another 8 weeks ok....

ChapTer of New Life

2011-05-13T23:38:00.000-07:00

Mom's Diary Entry 14 Week 30++

14 May 2011: Maybe because of the yam fish head steamboat, mummy's palms and feet were so itchy..went to poh sin's uncle's shop to get an allergic cream to apply.

mummy, daddy went to shop in pasar pagi..mummy so happy as we got to buy the covered hand carry basket made from vietnam cost RM40 fr the big 1, RM22 for the smaller 1...Big 1 to keep all your little shirts, pants, mittens and boots and etc. Smaller 1 to keep the cotton bud oilment and so forth...mummy really very excited getting those two things!!!mummy
love you !!!

this is the big one

See, can keep so many things

this is the smaller one, to keep all the little things

ChapTer of New Life

2011-05-10T05:43:00.000-07:00

MOm'S Diary
Entry 13
week 29 ++

9 May 2011: Mummy, daddy went to buy you seba med cleansing liquid 1L + 500ml RM65, mummy's breast pad rm31 for two packs, and your little handkerchief 5 x rm1.90. in Tesco, mummy bought the cotton wool and cotton bud to apply alcohol on your tummy button.

10 May 2011: Mummy went to klinik desa kilang lama for monthly check up. Mummy's weight is 74kg. increase 2 kg. Nurse listened to your heartbeat and said is strong..good job, boy. Mummy love you. she also check on your position. everything is fine. She gave mummy the 2nd tetanus injection. She taught mummy how to fill in the table on your movement. Start from 9.00am until 9 p.m. Everytime you kick need to be jotted down until the 10th and write the time. So start from tomorrow mummy need to pay more attention on your kick kick !!!!

ChapTer of New Life

2011-05-05T17:29:00.000-07:00

Mom's Diary
Entry 12
Week 28 ++

30 April 2011: Mummy, daddy went to Penang Peekaboo to buy you some stuffs...End up, we only bought you your Avent milk Bottles(rm50.90), bumble bee nail clipper(rm18.90) and breastmilk storage bottles(rm38). will continue shopping for you !!!

3 May 2011: Daddy was working on 1st may(Labour day). Mummy jusy rest at home...on Monday early morning, mummy had my first right leg cramp. very painful..since then, mummy very punctual in drinking mummy's milk milk.

Daddy wondering why baby dont want to kick more often when he touch on you...baby, next time when you feel daddy's hand on you, kick harder ok...mummy and daddy love you!!!

5 May 2011: we went to Seberang Prai Jusco, planning to buy you your necessary stuffs.ended up, we only bought you your newborn pampers as sales will be started on 21st May. is ok, 2 more weeks, mummy daddy will sure prepare all the necessary things!!!

ChapTer of New Life

2011-05-01T03:07:00.000-07:00

Mom's Diary
Entry 11
Week 25 plus

12 April 2011: mummy went for check up in clinic..praying that weight not increase so much..luckily 2.5kg..nurse didnt say much..so mummy no need to go 5 days continuous!!! mummy is taking dr chang's mutivit...easier and convenient...1 tablet a day..cost RM60 for scanning, consultation fee and vit.

mummy listen to children's song or 弟子规 almost everyday。。to train you to have the music cell..according to daddy..then love to enjoy your kick..mummy could see the tummy being punched out...daddy saw too..and got shocked..still remember daddy's shocking face when see mummy's tummy were out of shape.

daddy kept on asking went to scan..he wanted to see you, bb.

21 April 2011: bb was about 28 weeks..this time could see your face features...mummy and daddy so happy and excited...baby now is about 1.1kg. dr said normal weight...the whole scanning and consultation procedure lasted for about 10 minutes, then paid RM60 with vitamin.

see, mummy could see your eyes, sharp nose and mouth
mummy, daddy love you so much !!!!

ChapTer of New Life

2011-05-01T03:00:00.000-07:00

Mom's Diary
Entry 10
week 21 plus

17 March 2011: since mummy's weight shooting up, for safe, they asked me to take glucose blood test on 21 march.

mummy needed to fast at the night before, after 10pm no more food with little water.

21 March 2011: mummy had to fast!! pity baby, daddy always asked whether baby was starving inside...at 9.30am, nurse took mummy's blood, then drank the glucose syrup....so geli... then after 2 hours, 1130am, only took the second blood test...mummy was starving!!!

once done, mummy rushed to kilang lama economy rice stall to cure my stomach!!!
have to keep in mind to control my diet..so that no more overweight!!!!

you now started to kick and box mummy..mummy could feel your existence...daddy loves to touch on you and kissing you..mummy will talk to you, sing for you and enjoy you kicking mummy to show your response !!!

ChapTer of New Life

2011-05-01T02:53:00.000-07:00

Mom's Diary
Entry 9
21 weeks plus

15 March 2011: again, mummy's weight shooting up...was 69kg, increase 3.5kg again....

same procedures, 5 days continuous checking at clinic.
will consult doc on 17 march.

16 March 2011: went to Dr chang to scan on you...to see your size and weight...thanks god, everything is fine...your size normal, neither too big nor small..only mummy's size grew bigger n bigger!!!

could see you grew bigger and bigger
mummy and daddy so happy to see you
this time, dr confirm that you are bb boy..
so sometime mummy will call you, boy boy ah...

ChapTer of New Life

2011-05-01T02:44:00.000-07:00

Mom's diary
Entry 8
17 weeks plus

10 Feb 2011: mummy and daddy went to clinic Chang and Koh to scan on you..hope to know whether u r my boy o girl...but most importantly that you are healthy...Dr said most probably boy..since not yet confirm we still called you BABY...

13 Feb 2011: mummy went for check up..it was just over the Chinese New Year..mummy had put on too much weight..3.5kg..think had taken too much of food during the cny..

nurse asked mummy had to go 5 days continuous to check on my weight, blood pressure and urine...

huhuhu...since then, 5 days continuous mummy would report to the clinic after school at about 2pm.

ChapTer of New Life

2011-05-01T02:38:00.000-07:00

Mom's diary
Entry 7
13 weeks plus

18 Jan 2011: soon, it was the next check-up in clinic. mummy went to klinik desa kilang lam, kulim as school had started..

every thing just fine..
nurse asked to see doctor on 20 Jan 2011

20 Jan 2011: mummy told doc that i had coughing all the time,,for few weeks..she asked mummy to go to another clinic to take my phlegm..morning before brush my teeth then midnight 1 more time..(collect my own phlegm) Then send back to the lab..

everything was fine !!!

ChapTer of New Life

2011-05-01T02:28:00.000-07:00

Mom's diary
Entry 6
11 weeks plus

so fast that baby nearly 3 months..so mummy and daddy decided to go Aman Jaya Dr. tan to scan on you..

there was a big LCD screen in front and mummy could see you very clearly...
mummy and daddy were so so so excited seeing you..your head, body, little hands and legs, and your heart..the most important thing is doctor said you are healthy !! yes, that was what i wanted to hear !!!

Mummy, daddy love you so so much !!!!

mummy consulted the doctor few questions..one of them was, i always had backpain..who knows the doctor replied, you better go for Caesarean, natural birth might be hard for u!!

He couldnt gain my respect and belief..so mummy plan to consult another doctor in KUlim..

ChapTer of New Life

2011-05-01T02:18:00.000-07:00

Mom's Diary
Entry 5
9 weeks plus

19 Dec 2009: mummy went to clinic for the next check up.

mummy's weight still maintain..nurse wrote the number in red..anyway, others still normal...need to continue taking the tablets provided...

but mummy's started to have morning sickness..normally after lunch and dinner and in the car !!!

(vomit time) Daddy always said, why cant you find a proper place to throw out?? once get out from car.

mummy was angry: i couldnt tahan anymore.i vomited while walking across the other side of road..(so the whole lane got d vomit mark) Daddy had to pour water the clean the dirt!!!

one more time,
going out for dinner since mummy couldnt stand the cooking oil smell

mummy felt like vomiting once out from house...so i vomited at the drain..
daddy kept on asking, where is the house key??? house key...
but mummy was busy vomiting, he still asking...
mummy got angry already, scolded him, he was laughing...

somemore can ask mummy, next time vomit into the drain, dont vomit at the side, dirty!!
yet, he had to go and carried water to clean the drain...

mummy angry why daddy didnt comfort mummy..daddy said, he couldnt do anything also!!

is ok..mummy is fine with it !!!

ChapTer of New Life

2011-05-01T02:13:00.000-07:00

Mom's diary
Entry 4

mummy went to clinic to see the doctor..she was a female Chinese doctor..felt comfortable with her..

mummy told her always had abdomen pain and slight diarrhea..she asked me to go to another clinic in the evening for scanning..

mummy's dad, ur grandpa sent mummy there with jiu jiu..doctor did scan..but could see a karung there..u was too small..is fine doc said..so mummy back to bedong house with gong gong and jiu jiu.

ChapTer of New Life

2011-05-01T01:58:00.000-07:00

Mom's Diary Entry 3
5 weeks plus

Oh baby!! mummy had to be so extra becareful until everyday just sat at home..
luckily school holidays started..
mummy told all the 'kai ma' that i couldn't join them for the coming trip in Kl
21 Nov 2010: Mummy and daddy went to Kilinik desa Sg. lalang asking whether can register red book there, then transfer to kulim klinik..

the nurse said no problem and force us to open(register) that day as not many people..
daddy had to rush back home to bring the photocopy married certificate and IC.

Then, waiting, waiting and waiting...

mummy's turn to take blood..o no, i dont understand what the nurse required..asked me to hold my fist, then couldnt get the blood and ask me relax..then i loose my fist, then she asked me hold back my fist..really couldnt get what she mean !!!

the outcome, 'bruise' on my hand..painful man...is ok..
baby, mummy do this for you !!!! Tahan, tahan, Tahan !!!

Then i got this red book..is my passport thoughout this pregnancy...

redbook with all my pregnancy details in

that time, mummy's weight was 57kg..now???

the nurse checked on mummy's tummy..taught mummy how to take care myself, then gave me tablets of ferrum, vit c, b complex and folic acid

B complex and folic acide need to be taken b4 meal
ferrum and vit c need to be taken 1 hour b4 o after meal

mummy always craving for food, especially RICE

next check up was, 8 Dec 2010 to see doctor.

ChapTer of New Life

2011-05-01T00:54:00.000-07:00

Mom's diary Entry 2

my last period was 14 October 2010..this time not much bother about pregnancy..
Why? as school holidays coming soon...i have to plan fr school holidays trip with my buddies...

very soon, is 14 November 2010. something wrong with me..i always had migraine and couldn't be subsided..it turned even more serious if i traveled in the car...then i had slight pain at my lower abdomen just like PMS...something was in my mind..will I???

16 Novemver 2010: my school was having camping for pasukan beruniform..i led the group for aerobic dance..nothing's wrong with me...but then my period was late for 2 days...normally i would get punctually or earlier...

i couldn't stand the feeling of guessing..i stopby at the nearby pharmacy n bought the pregnancy test kit for RM10. Migraine still attacked..

we back to Sg. Lalang house...had a nonsense fight with hubby..wondering why my mood swing...i couldn't fall into sleep..i decided to test myself without letting him to know...

huhuhu..shoking me, it was double line..i ran down stairs to tell him..who knows he was too excited and couldn't believe it..

he kept on reading the instruction again and again..
and kept on asking me
'did you follow the steps correctly'
still unbelievable

it was nearly 11pm in the night..he wanted to go pharmacy to buy another test kit..his sis suggested to go clinic..luckily there was a clinic opened 16 hours, klinik Bersatu...without wasting a second he sent me there...

very nervous, telling doctor about everything..

Doc : have u tested my pregnancy kit,
I: YES...
Doc: Then why u came?..is nearly 99% confirm
I: pointing at him, he doesnt believe..wanna get 100% confirm

Then doc scan for me..since bb was still very small, so couldnt see him yet

I: can you do another pregnancy test?
Doc: yes

after few minutes, the result was out..with light pink colour line

Doc: ya, you are pregnant!!
hubby: Really? only very light line
Doc: even lighter also consider as pregnant

Doctor wondering why he so surprised..thought i got pregnant before married..ask us

Doc: have u guys prepared for this pregnancy??
i laughed and replied: yes..almost few months

i was laughing...Doc might thought hubby doesnt wanna take responsibility..

then we back home with exciting and happy feeling..

Reached home, my sis in laws looking at us, i showed them ok..
then only told my in-laws..they were excited but keep on reminding me to be extraordinary becareful as they were preparing to go for trip in China.

ChapTer of New Life

2011-05-01T00:17:00.000-07:00

mom's DiaRY
Entry 1

we have been preparing for the new life to reach our world...anyhow, it disappointed us..Then i started to worry...always think nonsense..worried that I am the one who had problems...i started to search for information about pregnancy..even think of consulting gynae..but my family doctor told that normally it takes 1 year to conceive..so ask me to relax and enjoy my life...

what made me sad most was, my friend who got married the same time as us, pregnant already...Haiz...when only be my turn????

Search Internet...few methods to increase fertility......

females:
1. take Evening Primrose after period
2. take acid folic as preparation
3. multivit for women
4. vit E and fish oil
5. exercise
6. 红糖姜茶
7. 白凤丸炖高丽参 (from mom of my friend)

males:
1. take zinc
2. take vitamin C
3. 高丽参炖龙眼

According to old grandma, Kuan Yin Niang Niang can grant your wish...
Accidentally met my friend one day, she thought me to use 3 red flowers (only flowers, not with stalks), then make your wish in front of Kuan Yin...
Believe it o not, this really worked !!!!! speechless gratefulness for Kuan Yin Niang Niang for granted my wish...

First Chinese New Year with New Family

2011-04-29T21:06:00.000-07:00

TIGER Chinese New Year

this was my first time celebrating CNY in my new in law's house...

yet, i still missed my family who celebrate CNY in kampung..

my mind, never stop,

imagining what my siblings,

my relatives,

were doing !!!

anyhow, feeling excited too
status as MRS. ooi
looking forward to distribute angpow the next day
this time have to give angpow
luckily have some rebate from the elderly
as first year of married can gain back angpow

our first reunion dinner with new family

lou sang

steamboat dinner

when about 12 midnight, is time for praying

i am looking forward the next day 年初一
as we couldn't wait to go back to Popo's house

we went to Baling Kuan yin temple
get good bless from kuan yin
good luck and good health throughout the year

年初二
we invited lion dance performed in our house
RM188

next, looking forward for our honeymoon trip in Bali

Life After Married

2011-04-29T20:59:00.000-07:00

LIfe After MaRried

i always wondering,
life after married,
...supposed to be blissful...

but wHy,
i don't feel it..
we always quarrel...
of nothing..
with divert thinking
and perception

wHy after married,
he seems to be more ego,
more jealous,
more autocratic...

Anyhow,
he promise to change..
AS
he said he behaves like this
is because
he too loves me
he doesn't want to share my love with some others
my heart should 100% belong to him

OR
maybe
i still in the mode of adjusting
mY NeW LiFe
new life with New family
i also need time to adapt

hope soon,
i could get used of it..
and no more
fighting,
quarrel,
and
cold war !!!

wEdding Night ReCeption

2011-04-29T06:53:00.000-07:00

we had learned from the experience..departed earlier and reached the hall at about 7pm...so everything still under control...

still had time 2 take photo

entering the hall in srkj(c) pekan lama

cake cutting ceremony

champagne time

敬酒仪式　＆　致谢词

singing session

yam seng time
the end of the reception
sending off the guests

then continue 'yammmmmm..'

the night was still young...
drinking session to be continued at our house

THE END
of our big day
25 Dec 2009
Christmas Day

Wish We Lived Happily Ever After

The Highlight of the Year

2011-04-29T02:49:00.000-07:00

BIG-BIG DAY (2)

After 5 minutes have reached bridegroom's house...will go through the same procedures...

various types of kuih being prepared

i could still eat

then, again praying session

serving tea ceremony
at this time, i realized that my legs totally out of function..
what was in my mind was,
removing my high heels and
for sure i will fell better..
but i still bear with it...
TAHAN..TAHAN..TAHAN...

finally i could sit and give the angpow to the youngsters

family photo shooting session

heading up to our new room

击痰盆

removing the white shawl

the end of our day time wedding ceremony

felt relieved

have about 1 hour rest before going to the bridal house for make up and hair do to the night reception

The Highlight of the Year

2011-04-29T02:06:00.000-07:00

BIG BIG DAY (1)

25 December 2009

about 7 in the morning, the make up and hair do artist came...about 1 n half hour everything was done...i was a beautiful bride...it is true that bride will be the prettiest woman in the world...

my parents helped to put up the hair shawl

family photo session

finally he is here..car opening..of course must bribe with angpaw

must go through few stages in order to enter the house...

had the egg breaking 1st..but not eating them

final stage to get the bride

making his whole life promise

FINALLY

the sweetest moment i have ever had..

have to walk around the house for 3 times,
meaning have passed 3 days and i am back to 娘家

praying session again

tea serving ceremony for the elderly

giving angpaw 4 the youngsters

family photo session

having meals with the family

Is time to say goodbye as is time to go to bridegroom's house

．．拜天公．．praying time

2011-04-29T01:00:00.000-07:00

．．拜天公．．

２５ December 2009
5:00 a.m in the early morning

we not even had 2 hours of sleeping time...after finished the dinner, we had to make the 汤圆．．to be used during the praying session...about 5a.m. the 送嫁娘came...then we set the table and arrange the things for praying..

i had to wear new pajama suits with new shoes too...

the praying session started

Hair combing ceremony

my parents fed me the 汤圆
i must not bite it, but swallow it !!

night before the big day

2011-04-29T00:40:00.000-07:00

24 December 2009

this night was the bride's dinner night...known as 'lao tia meh'...

huhuhu...Rush... Rush.... Rush... from Kulim ( the bridal house to do make up) and rush to restaurant...as had forgotten to bring back the bouquet of flower 4 the next wedding day !!!

it was just on time to reach the restaurant before 8pm...

before entering the restaurant

entering the restaurant

wont be forgotten to take photos with my beloved course mates and best friends

then, would be the cake cutting ceremony

followed by champagne opening ceremony

敬酒仪式　＆　致谢词

singing session

yam seng time

End of the night !!!!

挽面日

2011-04-29T00:22:00.000-07:00

December 2009

A few days before the actual wedding day, the bride need to do something by the 送嫁娘。。that was to remove the face hair using red thread...

firstly need to apply this powder on the face

then, only using the red thread to remove the fine hair on the face..

lastly, she would use the 2 eggs to remove the left over fine hair and tell something good

安床日．．

2011-04-29T00:00:00.000-07:00

December 2009

just about 2 weeks before the wedding day, there was a special day which the bride need to decorate the bride and bridegroom's wedding room with sisters or friends..the in laws need 2 set the bedset properly and never move the bed anymore with the two lights on all the time...

These two lights need 2 be on until the actual wedding night

i just did little decoration for the room

chinese Traditional pre-wedding preparation

2011-04-28T23:37:00.000-07:00

送娉日．．

１６　December 2009

this was the day which the bridegroom's family would send the wedding biscuits 喜饼，红包，红烛，喜包(kaya pao). then the bride family need 2 give other things in return such as 母糖，红蜡，汽水，红包．．

these are what the bridegroom's family sent to my house

These are the 母糖．．
We gave them back in return

there will be an elderly to come and negotiate with bride's family on any demand for the wedding day..as usual, my parents have no comment and demand on that..everything just simple and easy !!!

samples of pre-wedding photos

2011-04-28T21:22:00.000-07:00

November 2009

i was back from Sabah..Finally i got posted back to Peninsular..next, would be busy with wedding preparation...

Firstly, was choosing the wedding photos to be kept in our love album..not much of surprise...i do look pretty in the photo..but was quite not satisfied with the outdoor shooting...anyway...nothing could be done, since the price for the whole shooting was quite cheap and we were offered with lots of framed photos and total of 100 pieces of poses and photos..

here are the outputs...

this photo showed d sweetness of us...

i love this so much !!!! taken in Rumah Peranakan Penang

was dissatisfied with this seaside shooting...i didnt look like who i am..

This was taken in spice garden Penang

Next, will be busy with all the traditional pre-wedding ceremony...

@ur PrE-wEdDing photos

2009-08-25T21:28:00.000-07:00

After waiting so long and eagerly, finally we could manage 2 take our pre wedding photos together...before this we have some fighting due to divert opinions and feelings...however, with our hard effort, we could finally make it too..

The process of shooting was fun..even though is very tiring but i feel that i worth it especially the outdoor shooting...we both can feel that it is so precious that we could make it together...while for me, i feel that so unbelievable that the wedding gown that i wish 2 wear on it so long is really on me...so unbelievable...most important is when my hubby told me tat he feel so fortunate having me as his wife even warmer my heart...

Looking at our self-taking photo, i am kind of vain, feel that i really pretty in wedding gowns..i really have to appreciate this because it is only once in a lifetime and it is so meaningful..holding the hand of your love one and walk along the whole life with the same pace and path...Like one of our friends wish us "BAI TOU XIE LAO"...i will always keep this in mind..it is not easy to maintain a marriage life..both parties have to sacrifice...i will remember the wedding photo shooting moment for my whole life...and learn to appreciate everything that is given by GOD...

my C@mplicated FeElings

2009-08-06T18:10:00.000-07:00

i am supposed to be very happy and excited...my wedding is getting nearer..but due to the sudden incident...my mom was diagnosed to have breast cancer...suddenly i feel i lost of any interest in my wedding preparation...it is true that i couldn't accept the fact and always think negatively and the worst...in my mind, i will be thinking...will my mom accept the fact?? in my wedding, how people will look at her?? does she still a complete woman?? then i will think about myself...will i get this also?? any possibility that i need to undergo all these too?? hubby told me that why i like to think ahead which things not yet happen...why i always like to react like this and make people worry....for me..i feel that i am thinking of that because i want to make myself mentally prepared for that, which there is possibility to be happened...but now...i know..i know that it is time to force myself to learn to think positively...to accept everything..i know GOD is testing..i am pleading you...i will accept what you have planned in my life...but please reduce it the the minimum...i will try my very best to plant the good deed, i wish the good deed will get fine return to my family members...i want everyone in my family.everyone i love is safe and healthy...it is not under my control..it is in your hand...i really wish too..

since i was small, i always feel that i am very fortunate..i was born with love, after i grow up i always being showered by love...love from parents, boyfriend then husband..although not 100% perfect but at least i am blissful and that is more than enough...of course in a human life...there must have up and down...no matter how beautiful is your life...there sure have some cracks along the way..i believe that this is the time for me to learn to do mend the crack, learn to grow up..and the most important thing is learn to appreciate and learn to love and to be loved...after having few days of nonsense thing day...which i make myself like a 'soulless' body...my brain always loitering somewhere until i don't know what i was doing...i find fought with hubby..i think it is the way i wish to find a way to get rid of everything...we fight, quarrel, debate and cry finally....and also finally we express our true feeling...only through this channel i get out from the evil...i eventually understand one thing, no matter what is happening, what had happened..i am not alone...no matter how hard is the life...it sure will pass..that is why everyday i the school i am teaching the children past tense, present tense, and future tense...things already happened and it already become past tense..i shouldn't always look back and think of it..the most important thing is present..present tense...last time i like to think about future tense..but i think for the time being..i won't...future tense....i will wait until reach that future time only i think of that..like pa's saying...ships reach the harbour automatically will go straight...everyone is standing by with me..i have nothing to worry about...

in any relationship...not only just share happiness and sadness..and one must be persevere in holding the relationship.....because of my evil and devil and dumbly thinking, i like to think anf feel nonsense...GOD is fair..He always want to train me to become a real person..but He afraid that i couldn't take it..hence, he puts me to be my father's daughter..whom will always protect me from any harm..he appoints my hubby to stay with me no matter how nonsense, how stupid, how stubborn i am..no matter how much, how deep i hurt him, he will always be with me..bear with me...just sometime i just couldnt control my mind..i am just like that...after find fight with him...after quarrel with him...uncounsciously there is a strong energy awakening deep in my heart...suddenly i really feel relief, feel fresh, vigorous and new...now...i need to be brave..i need to help my mom..but not in the opposite they help me...and i shouldn't let this ruin my life, my blissful marriage...i should let everything run as normal, as it is supposed to be...no matter how hard is the life currently, anytime, anyday it will pass, then the new day come...i want to build my family..my normal and blissful family..i want my baby to come to this new world..i want shower them with love as what love that being showered to be so long...i believed i can make it..i am a super mother and wife..and teh most important thing is, i am not always alone...my hubby will sure always to be there with me... and wont allow any bad thing happen to be also...i am thankful that i find fought with him,,then only i realised how much he loves me...how me he could tolerate with me...how much he wish to protect me from everything..just like my father...and maybe my father has got a guy that he could believe and hand over me to him...and then at this moment only my mom sick...maybe that is the men's job to protect their lovely women in their whole life..never end..

To my hubby..i duno what to say anymore..to maintain a marriage it really need a lot of determination and perseverance..just want to say thank you...for still supporting me and bear with me all the time..i love you..

i miss u

2009-03-24T20:22:00.000-07:00

so fast i am back to Sabah again after 10 days holidays at home...love will really bond any lovers no matter where you go..at first i never think of go back home...but because too miss him, miss his love, his kiss and his hug i finally made decision to go back home...another reason to go back was i was so eager to see the limited collection wedding gowns...

10 days were so short for me...only few days he accompanied me...but for sure it really sweet..i enjoy spending time with him...he really understand me very much...that day i bought mangoes and wait for him to come back home from work only we enjoy the mangoes...who know my brother without asking my permission finished all the mangoes..he knows i like the mangoes very much and he purposely waited till have pasar malam and brought me there to buy me the mangoes..in fact deep in my heart, i feel so touched for his care and love.

when we were in the bridal house...i feel so happy and eager 2 fit all the wedding gowns...funny things happened..all the wedding i couldnt fit in...i was scolding is it all the brides are so skinny...which means i need to diet so hard in order to become skinny chick to fit all those wedding gowns..i just try my best to lose weight lah...when i was wearing the gowns, in my heart i was imagining he will be shocked and amazed seeing me wearing the gowns and become his bride..but to my surprise, he didnt really sit there anxiously expecting me wearing the gowns to show him..in fact he complained why all the gowns did not look really nice on me...we were making fun because all the gowns can only zip till the waist..after that cant move up anymore..really sad..hopefully after alter the gowns, my hubby really amazed and astonished looking at me...

The day when i need to come back Sabah..i really feel so hard to live apart from him...in fact, sometimes i really thank God for seperating us for awhile...because we both used to more appreciate each other and the fire spurt up even strong and hot...hahaha...the journey straight back to nabawan really crack my bones..but because of him, i am willing to come back late even though bit tiring...one more second i can spend with him i also feel is worth it...hopefully after God have tested us our love and bond, and we have passed the love test, he is willing to send me back to him as soon as possible...we both are waiting for that moment...and for sure we will appreciate each other more than ever...

i miss him..

2009-02-18T18:59:00.000-08:00

Very soon, I am teaching in Sabah for half of year. Before this, I never think of that I can adapt this kampong like without my hubby. But I still miss him. I started to learn how to enjoy the life here and maintain our relationship through phone, msn, 3G and webcam. When we can see each other on screen, undeniable the feeling of missing each other getting stronger, however, we feel that we both are close to each other. It is more than enough. Chinese new Year just passed and another new year, new hope is coming. This year I still get to take angpow and I thought next year I still have chance to take one more time.

But there is one weekend I got shock and so hard to settle down when I got to know that my mother in law wish us to get married end of this year. One thing I worry most is about money. I always wish I have a memorable wedding. But my best friend had wakened me up. In one couple life, the most memorable thing is that we are being recognized as husband and wife. This is the most blissful n merry moment. Even I had a very grand and memorable wedding, but if m future married life is not blissful is not meaningful also. My best buddies were surprised when got to know I am going to get married. They were so excited and happy for me. Well, at first thought that next year only I are going to have the wedding but since next year is believed to be not so good year and a fierce year. Rather than taking a risk, I am happy and excited to have the wedding day end of this year. Even simple, I think now I don’t mind already. Otherwise, have to wait till 2011. While I believe that if still delay our relationship will halt at one pace and become dull. That time will become very dull in the relationship. When we reach certain stage, we need new thing to spark up the relationship.

Honestly , I always dream how my wedding looks like. What is in my mind is not very grand wedding. But my wedding crowded with many people and relatives. My 6 yrs university buddies who are all happy of my belonging. Their wishes are so meaningful to me. I think I will become very happy and grateful for their coming and having a real good husband. But I still wish llike what is the movie, how d guy propose to the wife in a very romantic environment, in our case, we both just agree and so naturally and unconsciously plan the wedding before he has chance to propose to me. One silly question in my mind, if already ready for the wedding then only propose, will it be as romantic as what is in the movie? If no proposal like lacking something. Well, maybe I am too demanding.

For the time being, we were busy surveying room furniture and some wedding stuffs and do budgeting. One more thing, although we live apart, we both will search the same thing like survey wedding photos that we feel that is beautiful and special. We will discuss the photos as though that I am very pro. Then criticize people photo somemore. Hopefully our room turns out to be what we both like and comfortable. In fact, as long as is our room, a simple room is more than enough already.

Back to reality, all these need money. If keep everything too simple, I scare that I might regret in the future because wedding is once in your whole life. But money is still a big problem. Somemore, now is having economy crisis. I don’t know what will happen in the future. Will the economy recover in this few months? Will my hubby’s career stable and go higher? All question marks swirling in my head. In fact, I shouldn’t think too much. I always believe that GOD has his own planning. Same like I am posted to sabah and I see things differently and learn new things. Everything he arranges will take us to another better stage and path. It is depend on how we take it and accept it. Whatever thing happens, as long as we have hands and brain, nothing will beat us down. And whatever thing happen, I will support him and hopefully by this all turn positively and what I wish will come true. God bless us ok. Wish my hubby has a smooth career and everything turn out as what we wish.

i am back to him...

2008-12-14T17:47:00.000-08:00

After everyday counting the day, and after d quarrelling days, finally reach 15 november...very eagerly to come back home to see my hubby and my family members..they went to fetch me from the airport...but dont know why when i first saw my hubby, we both didnt look so excited n hug also...very sad..out of my expectation..when got in the car, i couldnt stand and ak him why he didnt look excited..his answer was because too long no see, suddenly like very hard to accept i am back and really with him...he added..now i am back to him but also imply that soon i still need to go back Sabah one day and leave him..suddenly my heart felt very pain and sour..maybe it is very hard for him 2 accept that suddenly i am back and soon i need to leave...this situation back to past 6 years when we needed to live apart and we had a hard time too..but no matter what, we take this as challenge..furthermore, we are now husband and wife...but the day missing each other honestly is hard 2 pass...what to do, we makan gaji only and need to fulfill my commitment also as educator...

after fetched us, we went to jalan jalan and 'pat toh' to find back our fire and love spark..we went to snake temple which my brother never been there before..i tried to take more photos but i looked fatter than before leaving to Sabah.but he said he liked me more if i look chubby...dont know whether was his true words...no matter what i still believe him...but of course i wont be so stupid and let me continue gaining weight...no confidence man...but it is really enjoying and fun eating together with him...so i think although i said wan to lose weight, but probably i might gain weight also because of him...and i think he lost weight since i was not with him eating together...or mayb i no more cook for him since i left Sabah...after back home, the first thing was to help him cut his hair and his beard..he really didnt take care of his appearance at all when i was not with him...

we always try our best to find back our love spark n very soon we got it back and we appreciate it very much...we even went to subscribe wedding photo shooting package cost rm3199 without thinking twice...but after came back and got opinion from all, we felt that in fact we no need to be so rush...we came out with consensus hat we want everything stabil especially our finance and i manage to transfer back here only we think of our wedding day and so on..

since we only have weekend to be together so basically weekend i seldom at home and try to spend all my lovely and sweet time with him..for the first weekend, we celebrated my birthday. not much of surprise but at least i could celebrate my birthday with him an my family members...we shouldnt expect too much right...and he presented me body shop perfume and lotion which i have to put the rose perfume on when out with him..because the rose smell is very sweet and seducing...

the following weekend, saturday was his company's family day. in fact i was very happy he brought me there..his purpose was to introduce me to all his colleagues, especially his female colleagues, know them more so that i know more about their personality..this was done on purpose because he didnt want me to be jealous if he is out with his colleagues..or mayb he tried to show off..show his wife to all his colleagues and he introduce me as his wife in front of his colleagues..i felt so sweet and happy even though felt weird..i still feel very young and wish to cuci mata on cute guy..sekali he introduce me as his wife....people wont look at me anymore liao loh...already jadi hak milik orang in such 'young age'...but it is ok lah...it could be another blissful feeling mah..

there was one weekend we went to KL..my purpose wan to have gathering with our friends but the time was too tight...i couldnt separate my body to parts to do so many at once...but i never regret went to genting with him...he always asked me whether i regret ging with him because he also felt guilty grasp all my time aways from my buddies..but honestly i never regret..there was only way we can leave everyone and have our own world only...that was also the reason we dont plan to have kids so early although my dream was have 3 kids before i reach 30. but i think quite hard to fulfill my so called noble dream..and i have to be thankful to my buddies, saiw hui, sin yuan, hua hceat, von and jia wen...thank you very much for giving me that wedding present...well if ask me whether it works o not, i really dont know how to answer you and according to them we both need some props to 'fire up' our relationship wo...anyway i really thank them so having such a good thought....these are the wedding gift they gave to me before leaving to genting and they insisted to give me on that day as well...

there was one weekend which was our fren's wedding in penang..the wedding dinner was so grand and it was held in a hotel..our frens told us that they expect our wedding more than this...we both also wan this kind of grand wedding if we could afford..but verything must be in our budget..after wedding we have to plan buying our house..our home sweet home...so we in fact have a tight budget..but all of us really enjoy the wedding dinner..it was like a big gathering for us to talk and laugh..we also took many photos and the best thing was, i dont know why my hubby so excited and kept on inviting his frens drinking beer..but very embarassing loh..he after 2 cups already felt dizzy and bit of drunk..and he felt his whole body hot and head pumping...but i liked to him like that...i also dont know why..mayb i like to see a drunken husband..he acted very funny...but luckily he wont simply scold or beat people..but he will turn to be very sweet and romantic...and i like the liquar smell from his mouth..i sound crazy right...

Very soon i was home for almost 1 month, we tried to seize opportunity to be together and spend all our time to be together..but we could not stay together yet because traditionally we not yet married and i don want people talking bad behind us...in fact we both were quite conservative when at home..mayb is the environment we grow up...even the wedding gift they gave me, i oso hide deep inside inside my cupboard and make sure no one could find or see it...very sorry to my frens for ruining the gift but i 100% make sure they are in good condition because i also need them very much in future also..ahhaha..

i hope that for the coming weekend before the school start, we still can go travelling and have fun so that d sweet memory always kept in our mind and i will also keep them here...our blog..miss you darling...

quarrel and quarrel

2008-11-07T20:20:00.000-08:00

it is kind of normal that couples quarrel...me n him quarrel or more accurately just me quarrel wif him probably is because of distance...mayb too miss each other and no place to express..that y express through the medium of QUArrel...

but most probably is jealousy...i too jealous when i got to know he actually went out with female colleagues or fetch female colleagues to the office..in fact i know it is nothing and normal but because i am too possesive and easily get jealous and i started everything...i started to end his call n didnt reply his messages...but sumetimes i will think, why should i do that...but very very fortunately he is always so patient and waited for me to cool down first and explain to me the whole things....as he always said..our problem is distance n the fact is i cant survive without guy...but i can promise that i wont do anything wrong as i know i am a Puan...not a CIk anymore..in fact sometimes feel very sad for that title..or mayb still not get used of this title....

another matter "fairness'' alwaz swirl in my mind...is there any fair or unfair in a relationship...in fact we know in a relationship there is not fair and unfair..but why i seem so calculative counting whether is this fair for me, or is this fair 4 him...or mayb i am too worried for so many things which i should not do that...n again my hubby told me..this is due to distance problem..is IT?? i am still wondering..

i am a very weird person, at this moment i am perfectly love him, at the next second i will suddenly angry with him with a small matter...is me got problem or he got problem..or distance is the problem...we kept on blaming on 'distance'' but it is distance is a real problem..if we didnt register that day, will we still a couple now???a very big question mark...my best friend said..'if he is your real man, you will be with him no matter what n when'..but now we seem force ourselves using the title of 'husband and wife'...well, it is truly sweet n blissful when u have a husband or someone who confirm will be there always with you...but how if there is husband but not always be with you, is it a lacking there???however, soon we will see each other and hopefully all will settle....it is kind of stupid..in fact is already husband and wife but still have so many worries..mayb i stay in kampung, not much entertainment and too free to think nonsense..or mayb my jealousy is too strong...i hope that my hubby alwayz support me and bear with me..but i know he for sure will always standby me!!!he will try all his best to comfort me and calm me down!!!

darling, i know sometimes i bit like nonsense..i also dont know why at that moment i will feel like that...but very fortunate GOD understand me and alwayz give me the best thing and that is you...i know you alwayz try very hard to cope with me...and i alwayz be the one to find fault...i am trying hard to change but you know bit hard for me because i am who i am..but we both have confidence we will stay happily and blissfully until the end of our life!!! hope i can get transfer fast back to his side and bulit our happy family!!!!and make one thing clear, i ahve the heart to get transfered but i don wan to put so much hope so that i wont get hurt if the transferation is failed..hope u too...just try our best to maintain our marriage!!! LOve u!!

HonEym@@n

2008-10-14T23:12:00.000-07:00

Well, strictly dis is not honeymoon as if honeymoon is d couple go and back from honeymoon 2gether, but in our case...NO..however, we still hope that we can enjoy this holidays to the fullest..

in fact, no many places we have visited and d trip was so rush and tiring...which also caused conflict between us...well, it is true that everything have sweetness and bitterness...although we felt so happy can be together...but when too close together then sometimes conflict happen..when conflict happen, we will be thinking, should we to be together??but this time fighting, cant be like last time said break up and marriage is not a kidding...the question is always swirling in my head..how a couple can go through so many things at one time...

when not together, always thinking to be together, but when too long together then conflict occur...such a contradictory...but it is true that to maintain a marriage need a very deep knowledge and both also need to cooperate and understand each other...

i feel that i am very lucky to have him as my husband because he is willing to give in when we are in conflict...of course sometimes he will also get angry and moody but very soon he will become alright..and whatever i ask for, as long as he can do it, he will do 4 d sake of me...for instance, i wish to go Little Italy which is quite famous in KK..but i know it is expensive to dine there...but because he knows i wish to go there, he is willing to carry his heavy luggage and walk with me to that restaurant...normally if a meal costs rm8 for him is also very expensive, but with me, he is willing to spend his money as long as i am happy!!!

however i still feel that redang and terengganu trip is more memorable for me...because at the same time, i have fun with my closest darling and friends too...but after we have our own family, everything husband come first...whatever it is, i stil wish that HE is d gift from the god and we will build our happy family!!! however, MONEY take charge of dis..but my dada said MONEY is not d priority but MEMORY...time and memory cant be bought by MONEY!!!anyone agree???

OuR RegisTraTiOn DAY!!!

2008-09-15T23:33:00.000-07:00

After so long in the road of coupling, full of sadness, sweetness, surprise and many flavours, finally i ended up with him..now i wan to introduce HIM...he will be the main actor in this blog and of coz i am the main actress here...most of our friends call him LOON...he is a simple person, not romantic but caring and responsible..tat y i decided to end up with him...when i was in SABAh for the few weeks, he so worried about me and alwaz called me to distract my attention..he even asked me to come back if the condition is too back..luckily i very soon can adapt the situation there..his attitude n personality totally opposite to me..thay why we can match..theday when i came back from kk, at 515am he called me and asked whether i reach airport alr..i got frieghten coz my flight at 7am..then only he realised he mistakenly see d time to 615am..i wan laughing but vy happy that he so so care of my return..some of his friends asked him whether he has thought thoroughly to make this decision n very sure n firm he said YES!!!in fact we plan to register, just make it earlier coz evyone here wish that i can come bek 2 semenanjung soon..but in fact sabah's life is also not bad, an extraordinary new start of life n i started to like it...but becoz of my hubbu n my family here, i have to apply come bek here if can, as soon as possible lah..

Let's go the our BIG day, which my status has changed to MRS.OOi.tat day i woke up very earlyn quite nervous to prepare myself..how early??it is 5am..at abt 8 am loon came, i still not yet ready, busy with my make up n dress...he terpaksa have to tie the rings on the bear himself..and to my surprise he can tie better than me and they looked nice...shame of myself..

then waited 4 my dad 2 bring us to the min xiu.so many people there..we have to queue up and take number..we got number 17..event started at 1030am..so we went 4 drink 1st at kopitiam..imagine with dress, flowers n the bear bear..so many eyes looking at me..so embarassing..

Event started at 1030am sharp with prayers..i have a deep believe in 'SONG DA FUNG ZU SHI' and today he is the witness for my marriage..feel happy n big relief...but sad is my grandmother does not have chance to see me get married witha good guy..we kept on taking photoes in fron of the hall since so many couples in front...we didnt even listen 2 the 'pengerusi Datuk Beh' to give speech...soon is our turn..we make fun there n were not serious abt that coz the pegawai saksi is my dad's old friend. when the uncle asked me whether i am willing to become loon's wife, i just nod my head and speechless..the uncle ask me 'willing bo' then only i very pai seh said 'ya, willing'..not like loon, so loud he said 'I am willing'..in fact, after he said that words, i was laughing there..tat y when it is my turn, i become speechless...

after all. we still took some photos then went 2 take our lunch with my in-laws n parents...in js few minutes, i become other people's wife alr...now i have another new n heavy responsibility alr loh...hope n wish that we both try hard 2 maintain our relationship and happy till the end of our life!!!

*14 SEPT was a very memorable day for both of us!!! Each midautumn festival (mooncake festival) which mean reunion is also a very meaningful festival for us!!!