i miss u

so fast i am back to Sabah again after 10 days holidays at home...love will really bond any lovers no matter where you go..at first i never think of go back home...but because too miss him, miss his love, his kiss and his hug i finally made decision to go back home...another reason to go back was i was so eager to see the limited collection wedding gowns...

10 days were so short for me...only few days he accompanied me...but for sure it really sweet..i enjoy spending time with him...he really understand me very much...that day i bought mangoes and wait for him to come back home from work only we enjoy the mangoes...who know my brother without asking my permission finished all the mangoes..he knows i like the mangoes very much and he purposely waited till have pasar malam and brought me there to buy me the mangoes..in fact deep in my heart, i feel so touched for his care and love.

when we were in the bridal house...i feel so happy and eager 2 fit all the wedding gowns...funny things happened..all the wedding i couldnt fit in...i was scolding is it all the brides are so skinny...which means i need to diet so hard in order to become skinny chick to fit all those wedding gowns..i just try my best to lose weight lah...when i was wearing the gowns, in my heart i was imagining he will be shocked and amazed seeing me wearing the gowns and become his bride..but to my surprise, he didnt really sit there anxiously expecting me wearing the gowns to show him..in fact he complained why all the gowns did not look really nice on me...we were making fun because all the gowns can only zip till the waist..after that cant move up anymore..really sad..hopefully after alter the gowns, my hubby really amazed and astonished looking at me...

The day when i need to come back Sabah..i really feel so hard to live apart from him...in fact, sometimes i really thank God for seperating us for awhile...because we both used to more appreciate each other and the fire spurt up even strong and hot...hahaha...the journey straight back to nabawan really crack my bones..but because of him, i am willing to come back late even though bit tiring...one more second i can spend with him i also feel is worth it...hopefully after God have tested us our love and bond, and we have passed the love test, he is willing to send me back to him as soon as possible...we both are waiting for that moment...and for sure we will appreciate each other more than ever...

i miss him..

Very soon, I am teaching in Sabah for half of year. Before this, I never think of that I can adapt this kampong like without my hubby. But I still miss him. I started to learn how to enjoy the life here and maintain our relationship through phone, msn, 3G and webcam. When we can see each other on screen, undeniable the feeling of missing each other getting stronger, however, we feel that we both are close to each other. It is more than enough. Chinese new Year just passed and another new year, new hope is coming. This year I still get to take angpow and I thought next year I still have chance to take one more time.

But there is one weekend I got shock and so hard to settle down when I got to know that my mother in law wish us to get married end of this year. One thing I worry most is about money. I always wish I have a memorable wedding. But my best friend had wakened me up. In one couple life, the most memorable thing is that we are being recognized as husband and wife. This is the most blissful n merry moment. Even I had a very grand and memorable wedding, but if m future married life is not blissful is not meaningful also. My best buddies were surprised when got to know I am going to get married. They were so excited and happy for me. Well, at first thought that next year only I are going to have the wedding but since next year is believed to be not so good year and a fierce year. Rather than taking a risk, I am happy and excited to have the wedding day end of this year. Even simple, I think now I don’t mind already. Otherwise, have to wait till 2011. While I believe that if still delay our relationship will halt at one pace and become dull. That time will become very dull in the relationship. When we reach certain stage, we need new thing to spark up the relationship.

Honestly , I always dream how my wedding looks like. What is in my mind is not very grand wedding. But my wedding crowded with many people and relatives. My 6 yrs university buddies who are all happy of my belonging. Their wishes are so meaningful to me. I think I will become very happy and grateful for their coming and having a real good husband. But I still wish llike what is the movie, how d guy propose to the wife in a very romantic environment, in our case, we both just agree and so naturally and unconsciously plan the wedding before he has chance to propose to me. One silly question in my mind, if already ready for the wedding then only propose, will it be as romantic as what is in the movie? If no proposal like lacking something. Well, maybe I am too demanding.

For the time being, we were busy surveying room furniture and some wedding stuffs and do budgeting. One more thing, although we live apart, we both will search the same thing like survey wedding photos that we feel that is beautiful and special. We will discuss the photos as though that I am very pro. Then criticize people photo somemore. Hopefully our room turns out to be what we both like and comfortable. In fact, as long as is our room, a simple room is more than enough already.

Back to reality, all these need money. If keep everything too simple, I scare that I might regret in the future because wedding is once in your whole life. But money is still a big problem. Somemore, now is having economy crisis. I don’t know what will happen in the future. Will the economy recover in this few months? Will my hubby’s career stable and go higher? All question marks swirling in my head. In fact, I shouldn’t think too much. I always believe that GOD has his own planning. Same like I am posted to sabah and I see things differently and learn new things. Everything he arranges will take us to another better stage and path. It is depend on how we take it and accept it. Whatever thing happens, as long as we have hands and brain, nothing will beat us down. And whatever thing happen, I will support him and hopefully by this all turn positively and what I wish will come true. God bless us ok. Wish my hubby has a smooth career and everything turn out as what we wish.

i am back to him...

After everyday counting the day, and after d quarrelling days, finally reach 15 november...very eagerly to come back home to see my hubby and my family members..they went to fetch me from the airport...but dont know why when i first saw my hubby, we both didnt look so excited n hug also...very sad..out of my expectation..when got in the car, i couldnt stand and ak him why he didnt look excited..his answer was because too long no see, suddenly like very hard to accept i am back and really with him...he added..now i am back to him but also imply that soon i still need to go back Sabah one day and leave him..suddenly my heart felt very pain and sour..maybe it is very hard for him 2 accept that suddenly i am back and soon i need to leave...this situation back to past 6 years when we needed to live apart and we had a hard time too..but no matter what, we take this as challenge..furthermore, we are now husband and wife...but the day missing each other honestly is hard 2 pass...what to do, we makan gaji only and need to fulfill my commitment also as educator...

after fetched us, we went to jalan jalan and 'pat toh' to find back our fire and love spark..we went to snake temple which my brother never been there before..i tried to take more photos but i looked fatter than before leaving to Sabah.but he said he liked me more if i look chubby...dont know whether was his true words...no matter what i still believe him...but of course i wont be so stupid and let me continue gaining weight...no confidence man...but it is really enjoying and fun eating together with him...so i think although i said wan to lose weight, but probably i might gain weight also because of him...and i think he lost weight since i was not with him eating together...or mayb i no more cook for him since i left Sabah...after back home, the first thing was to help him cut his hair and his beard..he really didnt take care of his appearance at all when i was not with him...

we always try our best to find back our love spark n very soon we got it back and we appreciate it very much...we even went to subscribe wedding photo shooting package cost rm3199 without thinking twice...but after came back and got opinion from all, we felt that in fact we no need to be so rush...we came out with consensus hat we want everything stabil especially our finance and i manage to transfer back here only we think of our wedding day and so on..

since we only have weekend to be together so basically weekend i seldom at home and try to spend all my lovely and sweet time with him..for the first weekend, we celebrated my birthday. not much of surprise but at least i could celebrate my birthday with him an my family members...we shouldnt expect too much right...and he presented me body shop perfume and lotion which i have to put the rose perfume on when out with him..because the rose smell is very sweet and seducing...

the following weekend, saturday was his company's family day. in fact i was very happy he brought me there..his purpose was to introduce me to all his colleagues, especially his female colleagues, know them more so that i know more about their personality..this was done on purpose because he didnt want me to be jealous if he is out with his colleagues..or mayb he tried to show off..show his wife to all his colleagues and he introduce me as his wife in front of his colleagues..i felt so sweet and happy even though felt weird..i still feel very young and wish to cuci mata on cute guy..sekali he introduce me as his wife....people wont look at me anymore liao loh...already jadi hak milik orang in such 'young age'...but it is ok lah...it could be another blissful feeling mah..

there was one weekend we went to KL..my purpose wan to have gathering with our friends but the time was too tight...i couldnt separate my body to parts to do so many at once...but i never regret went to genting with him...he always asked me whether i regret ging with him because he also felt guilty grasp all my time aways from my buddies..but honestly i never regret..there was only way we can leave everyone and have our own world only...that was also the reason we dont plan to have kids so early although my dream was have 3 kids before i reach 30. but i think quite hard to fulfill my so called noble dream..and i have to be thankful to my buddies, saiw hui, sin yuan, hua hceat, von and jia wen...thank you very much for giving me that wedding present...well if ask me whether it works o not, i really dont know how to answer you and according to them we both need some props to 'fire up' our relationship wo...anyway i really thank them so having such a good thought....these are the wedding gift they gave to me before leaving to genting and they insisted to give me on that day as well...

there was one weekend which was our fren's wedding in penang..the wedding dinner was so grand and it was held in a hotel..our frens told us that they expect our wedding more than this...we both also wan this kind of grand wedding if we could afford..but verything must be in our budget..after wedding we have to plan buying our house..our home sweet home...so we in fact have a tight budget..but all of us really enjoy the wedding dinner..it was like a big gathering for us to talk and laugh..we also took many photos and the best thing was, i dont know why my hubby so excited and kept on inviting his frens drinking beer..but very embarassing loh..he after 2 cups already felt dizzy and bit of drunk..and he felt his whole body hot and head pumping...but i liked to him like that...i also dont know why..mayb i like to see a drunken husband..he acted very funny...but luckily he wont simply scold or beat people..but he will turn to be very sweet and romantic...and i like the liquar smell from his mouth..i sound crazy right...

Very soon i was home for almost 1 month, we tried to seize opportunity to be together and spend all our time to be together..but we could not stay together yet because traditionally we not yet married and i don want people talking bad behind us...in fact we both were quite conservative when at home..mayb is the environment we grow up...even the wedding gift they gave me, i oso hide deep inside inside my cupboard and make sure no one could find or see it...very sorry to my frens for ruining the gift but i 100% make sure they are in good condition because i also need them very much in future also..ahhaha..

i hope that for the coming weekend before the school start, we still can go travelling and have fun so that d sweet memory always kept in our mind and i will also keep them here...our blog..miss you darling...

quarrel and quarrel

it is kind of normal that couples quarrel...me n him quarrel or more accurately just me quarrel wif him probably is because of distance...mayb too miss each other and no place to express..that y express through the medium of QUArrel...

but most probably is jealousy...i too jealous when i got to know he actually went out with female colleagues or fetch female colleagues to the office..in fact i know it is nothing and normal but because i am too possesive and easily get jealous and i started everything...i started to end his call n didnt reply his messages...but sumetimes i will think, why should i do that...but very very fortunately he is always so patient and waited for me to cool down first and explain to me the whole things....as he always said..our problem is distance n the fact is i cant survive without guy...but i can promise that i wont do anything wrong as i know i am a Puan...not a CIk anymore..in fact sometimes feel very sad for that title..or mayb still not get used of this title....

another matter "fairness'' alwaz swirl in my mind...is there any fair or unfair in a relationship...in fact we know in a relationship there is not fair and unfair..but why i seem so calculative counting whether is this fair for me, or is this fair 4 him...or mayb i am too worried for so many things which i should not do that...n again my hubby told me..this is due to distance problem..is IT?? i am still wondering..

i am a very weird person, at this moment i am perfectly love him, at the next second i will suddenly angry with him with a small matter...is me got problem or he got problem..or distance is the problem...we kept on blaming on 'distance'' but it is distance is a real problem..if we didnt register that day, will we still a couple now???a very big question mark...my best friend said..'if he is your real man, you will be with him no matter what n when'..but now we seem force ourselves using the title of 'husband and wife'...well, it is truly sweet n blissful when u have a husband or someone who confirm will be there always with you...but how if there is husband but not always be with you, is it a lacking there???however, soon we will see each other and hopefully all will settle....it is kind of stupid..in fact is already husband and wife but still have so many worries..mayb i stay in kampung, not much entertainment and too free to think nonsense..or mayb my jealousy is too strong...i hope that my hubby alwayz support me and bear with me..but i know he for sure will always standby me!!!he will try all his best to comfort me and calm me down!!!

darling, i know sometimes i bit like nonsense..i also dont know why at that moment i will feel like that...but very fortunate GOD understand me and alwayz give me the best thing and that is you...i know you alwayz try very hard to cope with me...and i alwayz be the one to find fault...i am trying hard to change but you know bit hard for me because i am who i am..but we both have confidence we will stay happily and blissfully until the end of our life!!! hope i can get transfer fast back to his side and bulit our happy family!!!!and make one thing clear, i ahve the heart to get transfered but i don wan to put so much hope so that i wont get hurt if the transferation is failed..hope u too...just try our best to maintain our marriage!!! LOve u!!

HonEym@@n

Well, strictly dis is not honeymoon as if honeymoon is d couple go and back from honeymoon 2gether, but in our case...NO..however, we still hope that we can enjoy this holidays to the fullest..

in fact, no many places we have visited and d trip was so rush and tiring...which also caused conflict between us...well, it is true that everything have sweetness and bitterness...although we felt so happy can be together...but when too close together then sometimes conflict happen..when conflict happen, we will be thinking, should we to be together??but this time fighting, cant be like last time said break up and marriage is not a kidding...the question is always swirling in my head..how a couple can go through so many things at one time...

when not together, always thinking to be together, but when too long together then conflict occur...such a contradictory...but it is true that to maintain a marriage need a very deep knowledge and both also need to cooperate and understand each other...

i feel that i am very lucky to have him as my husband because he is willing to give in when we are in conflict...of course sometimes he will also get angry and moody but very soon he will become alright..and whatever i ask for, as long as he can do it, he will do 4 d sake of me...for instance, i wish to go Little Italy which is quite famous in KK..but i know it is expensive to dine there...but because he knows i wish to go there, he is willing to carry his heavy luggage and walk with me to that restaurant...normally if a meal costs rm8 for him is also very expensive, but with me, he is willing to spend his money as long as i am happy!!!

however i still feel that redang and terengganu trip is more memorable for me...because at the same time, i have fun with my closest darling and friends too...but after we have our own family, everything husband come first...whatever it is, i stil wish that HE is d gift from the god and we will build our happy family!!! however, MONEY take charge of dis..but my dada said MONEY is not d priority but MEMORY...time and memory cant be bought by MONEY!!!anyone agree???

OuR RegisTraTiOn DAY!!!

After so long in the road of coupling, full of sadness, sweetness, surprise and many flavours, finally i ended up with him..now i wan to introduce HIM...he will be the main actor in this blog and of coz i am the main actress here...most of our friends call him LOON...he is a simple person, not romantic but caring and responsible..tat y i decided to end up with him...when i was in SABAh for the few weeks, he so worried about me and alwaz called me to distract my attention..he even asked me to come back if the condition is too back..luckily i very soon can adapt the situation there..his attitude n personality totally opposite to me..thay why we can match..theday when i came back from kk, at 515am he called me and asked whether i reach airport alr..i got frieghten coz my flight at 7am..then only he realised he mistakenly see d time to 615am..i wan laughing but vy happy that he so so care of my return..some of his friends asked him whether he has thought thoroughly to make this decision n very sure n firm he said YES!!!in fact we plan to register, just make it earlier coz evyone here wish that i can come bek 2 semenanjung soon..but in fact sabah's life is also not bad, an extraordinary new start of life n i started to like it...but becoz of my hubbu n my family here, i have to apply come bek here if can, as soon as possible lah..

Let's go the our BIG day, which my status has changed to MRS.OOi.tat day i woke up very earlyn quite nervous to prepare myself..how early??it is 5am..at abt 8 am loon came, i still not yet ready, busy with my make up n dress...he terpaksa have to tie the rings on the bear himself..and to my surprise he can tie better than me and they looked nice...shame of myself..

then waited 4 my dad 2 bring us to the min xiu.so many people there..we have to queue up and take number..we got number 17..event started at 1030am..so we went 4 drink 1st at kopitiam..imagine with dress, flowers n the bear bear..so many eyes looking at me..so embarassing..

Event started at 1030am sharp with prayers..i have a deep believe in 'SONG DA FUNG ZU SHI' and today he is the witness for my marriage..feel happy n big relief...but sad is my grandmother does not have chance to see me get married witha good guy..we kept on taking photoes in fron of the hall since so many couples in front...we didnt even listen 2 the 'pengerusi Datuk Beh' to give speech...soon is our turn..we make fun there n were not serious abt that coz the pegawai saksi is my dad's old friend. when the uncle asked me whether i am willing to become loon's wife, i just nod my head and speechless..the uncle ask me 'willing bo' then only i very pai seh said 'ya, willing'..not like loon, so loud he said 'I am willing'..in fact, after he said that words, i was laughing there..tat y when it is my turn, i become speechless...

after all. we still took some photos then went 2 take our lunch with my in-laws n parents...in js few minutes, i become other people's wife alr...now i have another new n heavy responsibility alr loh...hope n wish that we both try hard 2 maintain our relationship and happy till the end of our life!!!

*14 SEPT was a very memorable day for both of us!!! Each midautumn festival (mooncake festival) which mean reunion is also a very meaningful festival for us!!!